There was a lot Gwen was dealing with and it was actually kind of exhausting. Unpredictable glitching and the minor injuries sustained therein, for starters, but that wasn't the worst of it at all.
The worst of it was the memories she'd gotten, of moments she had no right seeing, she's sure of it. And some of them, she didn't even know what to do with. Like the one of Hawk and Demetri and that awful moment when...
Oh, she knew about that. She knew because Hawk told her about that fight and how he'd hurt his friend so badly. But having that memory shoved into her head when she and her boyfriend had both glitched at the same time earlier this evening while cleaning up after dinner.
That wasn't fair at all, universe. Not to Hawk. It felt sort of shitty, and she'd kind of been quiet after. Processing.
She wasn't judging her boyfriend at all for it, and it didn't change how she felt about him. Not negatively, at least. She'd felt how bad he felt after, all that pressure from the other Cobras around him, and that need to fit in, however it happened.
But him not knowing she'd seen it, that felt dishonest. So after he gets out of the shower and crawls into bed, Gwen curls up against him and speaks.
"Do me a favor, and don't hate me. But...I got one of your memories today." She's not to happy about that, Hawk.
Gwen being so quiet was killing Hawk. Not just because he missed talking to his closest friend but because he needed to tell her something and he could tell that she was kind of… withdrawn. He knew that if he told her he needed to talk she’d listen, that’s the type of person she was, but he wanted to give her some space when she was like this.
Or at least honor her being quiet, giving space was hard because they were both very tactile people and if they were around each other it would be weird to NOT be touching the other person.
So when she crawled into bed with him be breathed a sigh of relief when she started talking. “Don’t hate me” wasn’t a great way to start a conversation but Hawk was pretty sure Gwen would never do anything that would make him hate her.
“Gwen… babe, I would never hate you. Especially not for that since you couldn’t control it,” he said. Not that he was thrilled about what she’d seen but she already knew he’d done that. “I’m sorry you had to see that though. I was… super shitty. Suuuuuuper shitty. I’m lucky he forgave me.”
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action: july 2nd. Late evening
Date: 2021-07-03 03:39 pm (UTC)The worst of it was the memories she'd gotten, of moments she had no right seeing, she's sure of it. And some of them, she didn't even know what to do with. Like the one of Hawk and Demetri and that awful moment when...
Oh, she knew about that. She knew because Hawk told her about that fight and how he'd hurt his friend so badly. But having that memory shoved into her head when she and her boyfriend had both glitched at the same time earlier this evening while cleaning up after dinner.
That wasn't fair at all, universe. Not to Hawk. It felt sort of shitty, and she'd kind of been quiet after. Processing.
She wasn't judging her boyfriend at all for it, and it didn't change how she felt about him. Not negatively, at least. She'd felt how bad he felt after, all that pressure from the other Cobras around him, and that need to fit in, however it happened.
But him not knowing she'd seen it, that felt dishonest. So after he gets out of the shower and crawls into bed, Gwen curls up against him and speaks.
"Do me a favor, and don't hate me. But...I got one of your memories today." She's not to happy about that, Hawk.
AUGH it never posted my reply to this.
Date: 2021-08-18 01:56 am (UTC)Gwen being so quiet was killing Hawk. Not just because he missed talking to his closest friend but because he needed to tell her something and he could tell that she was kind of… withdrawn. He knew that if he told her he needed to talk she’d listen, that’s the type of person she was, but he wanted to give her some space when she was like this.
Or at least honor her being quiet, giving space was hard because they were both very tactile people and if they were around each other it would be weird to NOT be touching the other person.
So when she crawled into bed with him be breathed a sigh of relief when she started talking. “Don’t hate me” wasn’t a great way to start a conversation but Hawk was pretty sure Gwen would never do anything that would make him hate her.
“Gwen… babe, I would never hate you. Especially not for that since you couldn’t control it,” he said. Not that he was thrilled about what she’d seen but she already knew he’d done that. “I’m sorry you had to see that though. I was… super shitty. Suuuuuuper shitty. I’m lucky he forgave me.”